Who Am I?

By asking this question, I started a journey.
Like any journey, it has had its highs and lows.
I was scared and excited.
I was lonely and I found new friends.
I had fun and I was sad.
Finding my way to my destination is full of challenges.
Through out my journey I had many questions and like many who have made this journey before, my questions may have started a long time ago.
Many of the best questions came from inside me.

For a long time I had felt 'different' than my friends or even people in my family.
I recognized that I felt different as early as the age of four.
In school I was called a sissy.
I was called the name because I was different, the name made me feel scared and hurt.
I felt angry.
I wanted the body I was suppose to have.

Many transgendered persons have a sense of 'differentness' very early in life.

In junior high I was put into a children's ward for kids with mental health issues. I was in there because I was transgender. They took all my creativity away, it was to feminine. I was forced to hide my true self for over 34 years, when I found I was not alone.

TRANSGENDERED is an umbrella term, relating to how some individuals express their gender identity. For some it may mean changing their gender, perhaps surgically; for others, to dress in the clothing of the opposite gender; for some to be free to express themselves as neither male or female; and for others it means having been born with ambiguous genitalia.

Espial begins

It has been a long time since I have blogged anything. I have not taken the importance of sharing my world with others seriously. I thought what do I have to share with others? Yet I find things and discover so much through my journey in life, things I have decided to share. If you are looking for something ask me, I will try to find it for you or I will find someone who can.
You can also find me at twitter as Axcella. Come join me their. You can also find me listed under Biirtha Axcella Zelensky at Facebook.
Espial a fancy word for discovery. For a fancy woman and her discoveries.